Racing In The Wind

Sometimes when something has been troubling me, or if there's been a major event in our life, or if I'm just trying to tell Michelle how much she means to me, I write poems or songs. They are not very good, and usually only Michelle has to put up with them. Since I've seemed to have bared my soul here anyway, and I'm putting this together for Taylor, I guess you all will have to deal with them as well, or at least skip to the next entry.

I have been trying really hard to find my poem for Taylor's birth, but I haven't found it yet. So this isn't it, but another one. Monday night I got to hold Taylor in my arms, and I think I mentioned how good of a mood I was in before that. So I was real surprised that while I was holding her, that the tears just started coming out. This little girl has a way of doing that to me. Anyway, this poem is my attempt to write down what was going through my head at the time.

Racing In The Wind

So small and fragile

I feel your warmth

against my chest

locked within my arms

You were born so early

how it hurt us so

momma tried so hard

but had to let you go

For reasons unknown

dreams got replaced

leaving us trying

to cope in this place

I want to see you

but your face is behind

the water and tubes

that keep you alive

Sleeping peacefully

through alarms and dings

coming from all of

these damn machines

I rock you slowly

and try to ignore

all these wires

moving to and fro

Time is a healer

darkness will succumb

we will leave this place

your time will come

I close my eyes

fast forward the years

towards the the joy

and away from tears

I see you running

through the trees

racing in the wind

unbound and free

You playing among toys

spread through the yard

I see you smiling

hugging your momma hard

Your brother and sister

riding horses with you

everyone just trying

to keep up with you

I see you screaming

for no reason at all

I'm screaming right back

answering your call

I see you looking

I ask what you see

I see myself holding

you so close to me

Not all dreams do but

some dreams come true

and I'll keep dreaming

these dreams for you

Rest now and grow

my beautiful child

I'll replace my tears

by dreaming a smile

Everthing is alright

someday you will be

racing in the wind

unbound and free